For the Month of Missions, I wanted to be a bit creative and allow the blog to hear from other people about their experience in missions. So I asked for some wonderful volunteers to write about their time in missions and what God did. Today is my first guest blog!
Meet Rachel. Rachel is a lovely Kiwi girl (Kiwi = New Zealander), and she recently finished her DTS with YWAM. She is home in NZ now and has graciously sent me a bit of her story to share with you today :)
My missions life started with YWAM Newcastle Discipleship Training School, and at the time I had no idea it would ever extend any further than that. Throughout my DTS I went through a beautiful transformation. I was a very new Christian, and as a result, I took a very big hit to my confidence. I knew the old me was gone, so suddenly I had no idea about my identity, my purpose and how I was going to maintain a Christian life. Early on God implanted what would be the theme for my growth. We were praying and getting words for a pair. The leader standing before me looked at me and said “God says, he thinks you have a beautiful voice.”
As I went on, I grew in God and in knowledge. I learnt to rely on him for my strength and joy. I learnt to allow him to have an impact on my life decisions. Most importantly, though, I learnt to use my voice for him.
Our outreach was in the Philippines. I learnt fast that Filipinos were generally very shy.
Up front it seems a little silly to put a shy person in front of a shy crowd of people and anticipate good things.
Still somehow throughout outreach I spoke or shared to groups of people at least ten times. I spoke of God’s love, I spoke of faith, I spoke of loving others, I spoke on finding your strength in God, I spoke on the story of Ruth, and I even dug into my past and shared my story.
One group I shared with was a group of youth, who I lead for a volleyball ministry. Every day the youth would come, play volleyball, play ninja and then sit down and listen to myself or another leader speak. When it came to our sharing time, the youth became quiet and I struggled to get them to interact or answer even simple questions.
It was our last night at the location so all the ministry teams we had been running came together. The guy speaking gave the kids an opportunity to share what they had learnt. Seemingly out of the blue an 18-year-old girl stood up from the volleyball team. This wasn’t any girl…this was the shyest person from the team. She stood up and shared her very first testimony on all she had learnt. I couldn’t believe what I had heard. All during my speaking, she had been listening and God had transformed one shy girl through another shy girl. The result, two not so shy women.
I guess God could have left it there, but as God always tends to, he had a bigger plan for this growth. It didn’t matter what happened, throughout my time in the Philippines. If I was having doubts about myself, God would say, “That’s okay, but what about how you’re good at … Wouldn’t that be good for the director’s office on the base?” It took me a while to face this hint.
One night as I watched the moon disappear behind a storm I dared to ask God.
“What about my degree?”
“You’re worth more than a degree,” he replied.
It began to pour with rain, but I didn’t move. I bowed my head and said, “I get it now. I’ll do it.” It was that night I began to see how great God’s love truly was. He wasn’t concerned so much about what I was doing, but more about who I was becoming.
“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-18