“One thing have I asked of the Lord, that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord, all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in his temple.”
Psalm 27:4 is my life verse, my commission from the Lord – that above all else – I remain in Him, seeking Him, loving Him. I’ve been a part of ministry for over a decade at this point to various degrees and in various outlets. For the past 5 years, I have been a missionary with YWAM.
It’s so easy to become enamoured by the doing that we forget who we are doing it all for. Why am I supposed to tell that person at the coffee shop about Jesus? Because it’s in the Bible, and we feel this sense of obligation to check it off our lists? OR because we are so compelled by who God is that it’s simply an overflow – it’s a joy response.
I will admit that I have been in that first group. I have done the religious-legalistic-check-list-life. It’s tiring. It’s draining. It’s unsatisfying. AND, to be quite honest, it’s lonely. There’s not much room for relationship, communication, and fellowship when you’re so focused on a task…so focused on your checklist.
Since 2009, I have been on an incredible journey with God. He’s done so much in me to swing that pendulum the other way, and He has spoken to me out of that that at the end of the day, above all else – all ministry positions or roles, all tasks…all doing – dwelling, gazing and inquiring should top my priority list.
In doing that, life is much freer. Life happens more naturally in God when He is the focus and priority. I know if we are Christians, it’s always our aim to make God #1. We strive for it so much, but that’s the whole point – it’s something our heart must know more than our head knows, therefore eliminating the striving. It’s simply being. It’s being in Him.
That’s where this blog came about. I feel I have so much to share – the good, the bad and the ugly – of being a missionary and attempting to make my life verse a reality for my everyday. I hope to share inspiring pieces and brutally honest pieces, challenging pieces and perhaps funny pieces, glimpses of daily missionary life and glimpses of life in Australia. More than everything, though, I just want to share.